When I was hurt I was supposed to die but I didn’t and while I believed that I lived because of God but for years I have not understood why He would do that for me.

And his morning in Church the pastor was talking about God pruning:

John 15:1-4
15:1 "I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
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John 15:5-8

5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not remain in me, he is like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be given you. 8 This is to my Father's glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.
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Now I know that at one time I did bear good fruit then there were problems. So the Father pruned me a bit. And I feel good knowing that if I could do nothing I would have died but I came back to bear more fruit.